I put my smile and let them see what they want to see. So many faces, so many pretended , so many silence and I'm forgot who I am. Here ... the place where my emotion talks, this not good, this not a poetry , this is just the truth. My voice within behind all the mask i wore

Live It Up

From the streets  to this way
From nothing become this far
Maybe i don't understand what life is
Certainly mine was not a fairy tale
But I am a Queen of my Self


I don't believe in defeat, that's why I'm back for a beat
Lil'l girl from Depok, let's rock

They push you harder, Just do the same
They wanna beat you, Go on your way
They prevent your way, Change the movement
They hit your spotlight, Give them a hardnight
They read your mind, Go change the pace
Don't need to wonder, it's just their games

Dead Feel woman is a Devil woman


Sudah banyak, bahkan mungkin terlalu banyak hal yang sudah terlewati
Kemiskinan , jalanan , penghianatan, tuntutan, I dont even recall what else
but I am still here
Tired ? of course
Never counted how many times i ask God for never wake me up when this all turn down
so hard to think, no where to look out, no hands to reach. But I'm still here

I'm losing it , i want to throw it all sometimes
leave all the things left behind
Feeling  misfits living in this world
Lost and forgotten
It's hard to get high when you're living on the bottom

But It is good to have a faith by my religion that suicide is a crime
So I'm thingking
I'm thingking a lot of things
Many words of many faces
The Good and The Bad
The Caring and The Haters

This is the life that I choose, this is the life that I bleed *maybe*

Don't let them get the best of me, Not when i believe this was the best for me *at least now*
I have to make my self out ... alive

Maybe I will lose or maybe I will win ?
No ... Not anymore
No place for loser tomorrow , I have to WIN

I have to prove what i believe is THE THINGS

 Ujian hidup ?
You name it , I'm done it

How many times  they doubt me, I've past it
I have to past it once more ... *and maybe more ? *

I ain't stopping 'till I am DONE
Real Done
I should not lose faith, that's the only things i have

Counting every movement
Make my self happy
Dont pay for bad mouthing
Make a good prediction of everystep
Walk, keep walking until my feet invulnerable
Don't run, this time... don't run
Keep my breath stable
Don't rush anything
Don't lose my balance 
Put my feet in a baby step
Take it one by one 
Brave my self for every judgement, that's not gonna be good but stay still
Keep my head up for every loss i have to

Wake up lil'l girl, wake up
I know you love them but to love, means you have to live
To live means you have to breath
To keep breathing means you have to be alive
What's make you feel alive ? That's a question


It's time to wake up .... Think ... and Get Up.
Live it Up , the happiness belongs to someone who have will to reach them event in mean time they have to lose their world first.

-Cyl's-